Heart Beat

So I have never been in love before. Like I said before, I have never even let myself get close to it. I can't really say that I'm afraid of it. It's just that...well, I just never believed in it. Until recently, I never even thought about it. For me at least.
Sure, Starr had love with Skylar. But, honestly it sounded like a fairytale. And really, it was. But it was also a tragedy because in the end, she lost it. And now that I've had a glimpse of it, I don't want that kind of outcome.
So these feelings that are so foreign to me. So very unbelievable. So uncontrollable. Starr says they are love. And now I'm scared.
Laney leaves January 2nd to go on tour for four months. Four months without her sounds like forever to me. When I think about it too long, I feel weak and sick.
How the hell did this happen? I'm Dimes...I don't do love. Love and play don't mix. At least they didn't...before I met Laney. I'm so confused!
The way I see it, I have two choices. Let myself completely fall for her or pull a Walker and walk away now before I get too deep.
Any suggestions?