Thursday, February 5, 2009

I think she knows

I think Val is on to me. No matter which way I look at it, I still don't love her. I hate to say it, but she is not enough. Together we are not enough. I hate feeling like there's something missing. I hate needing so much more than what we have. She is such a great woman but...
She asked me to move in with her again and again I told her no. When she asked me why, I told her the truth. I just don't feel like we have made it to that part of our relationship.
Starr, I swear I'm not walking but what do I do when there is nothing there? I can't force myself to feel something for her. I care and enjoy being with her but there isn't much else there. I think that I have given this plenty of time to become something more. I'm not asking your permission to leave her, I just want you to tell me that I've done all I can. My reputation isn't the best in these serious relationships and I'm somewhat confused.
Call me tomorrow, Starr, if I don't call you first.
I miss everybody! Where have you all been?