times

So I get home yesterday from visiting Ash and Candy at the hospital. I walk into my dining room and there is a huge Thanksgiving meal on my table. I'm talking turkey, potatoes, green bean casserole, sweet potatoes, hot rolls, etc. It was all there. And hot too. The table is set for seven. For some reason I couldn't think of seven people I knew.
I search my house. I find no one. Not a soul.
So I'm thinking that its some kind of practical joke. That maybe the meal is fake or something. I go over to the turkey and get a spoonful of stuffing. I smell it. I poke it with my finger. Seems real, so I eat it. Yep...real.
I'm clueless as to who made the meal or why the table was set for seven. So I sat down and poured me a glass of wine, thinking...all this good food and its getting cold.
For some reason, I just couldn't touch the food. It looked great, smelled even better, but all I could do was stare.
After about five minutes of me staring, all the girls walk in the front door...with Candy.
Seems Bruiser and Walker had a bust day cooking and Candy had to keep me at the hospital until they were done. Good times.
All the girls were there along with Maggie (Peace's girl) and Val (Walker's girl). It was great and totally unexpected. And the food was amazing.
Thanks to all of you...my family.

more than thankful

I think we are all thankful for Ash's waking up...that's for sure.

Let me be the first to tell you...Starr...how thankful we all are for you.
You've been a rock for us all. Speaking for me, I know there have been more than a few times where I thought things were beyond hope. Somehow, you would help me see the light. No matter what is broke...heart, nose, car, or a damn guitar string...you'd be the first to help us fix it.
We take you for granted sometimes but you love us all anyway. On the shittiest day, you can still make me laugh. On the happiest days, you find a way to make it that much better. If we are lost, you find us.
We love you and everything you do for us.
Thank you!

Being Thankful

Thanksgiving...for some of us, its time that we get to spend with family. For others its just a day to eat way too much. And for the rest its both.
I usually take the day to think about what I've done and where I came from. Most of all, I think about my friends. When family was no longer an option for me, it was my friends who led the way, followed, stood by me, carried me, or just simply held on as I took them for a ride. I love them all and I make sure they know just how much.
The Crazy Lesbian Circus girls are the best.
Walker...I'm thankful for your honesty, even if I don't want it at times.
Bruiser...I'm thankful for your huge heart. You open my eyes to care when I seem so blind.
Dimes...I'm thankful for your faithful friendship. If I falter, you will be the first to pull me back on track.
Peace...I'm thankful for your sincerity. I know you mean everything you say.
And Candy, my dear Candy...I'm thankful for YOU. You've broken my heart from time to time but you always carry the duct tape with you to fix it. I'm proud of you.
I'm thankful for everyone in my life...it wouldn't be life without you all.
Loving you still...

not walking

Yeah...great news about Ash, huh. I hope she makes a full recovery.


Other news...Val...she still wants me to move in with her but understands that for me, its too soon. See ladies...I didn't run. She says she can wait but she doesn't want to wait forever. I can deal with that.

Bring in the clowns...

Angels

Ash's parents had decided to turn off the machines that were keeping her alive. It was heartbreaking to watch Candy beg and plead with them not to. They had to leave, she was so intense. Anyway, Candy went to Ash's side and started screaming at her. Telling her that she had to wake up. Telling her that she knew she didn't want to die. I had to close the door and block it so the nurses wouldn't come in and try to subdue Candy.
I'm not exactly sure what Candy whispered in her ear, but Ash started to move her hands, trying to grab for Candy.
Candy started screaming, "That's it Ash. You can do it. Come back to me."
And she did. I walked away from the door. I had to see for myself. Her eyes were open, she was moving her hands. It was beautiful.
The doctors came rushing in and took over from there but...
ASH IS AWAKE!