Home

Well, I'm back home and finally warming up a bit. And like Speed, I miss her already too. J, I miss you too.

It was a memorable trip. There's things I won't forget like table dancing and singing to the top of our lungs as Joan Jett blared through the speakers. Or like waking up in search of coffee while Speed sat and watched, laughing while sipping her decaf tea. She could have just told me that the coffee was on the counter. Or waking up at five in the morning with the God of Thunder sitting on the house. That thunderstorm was one for the record books as being the loudest, frightening storm ever encountered. I thought the house might crumble. I think the thing I will remember the most is waking up with the two of them wrapped around me. It was one of those moments where you think that if you died right at that moment, you knew you would die happy.

Things I hope will purge from my memory: Anus in his underwear. Yeah, he walks around the house that way. Actually, I want all memories of Anus and Egg purged from my brain.

I really understand why Speed was struggling so much. It is so hard to live with people that really bring you down. They have no respect and are pretty much scum bags. They have their moments where they seem okay but then one of them will open their mouths and throw a wrench in the decent vibe you might have been getting. It was rough and I really wish I could go into more details, but out of respect for my closest friend, I can't.

All that aside, it was cool to see Brody and Aspen (Speeds dogs). Brody has grown so much and she has turned out to be a beautiful dog. Aspen has grown too. She really didn't need to, she is already 70 or 80 pounds of pure muscle. I've got some pictures but I'm not sure if I want to share them. I really do have to keep this as anonymous as possible.

It is good to be back home but I really wish I could have brought Speed with me. It really hurts to see her like this. It isn't her. She is always happy, always making everyone laugh, always keeping the mood at a very happy high, and like this...she is a stranger to me. I really hope I helped. J said I did, but I will believe it when I see it.

And my thanks go to: J and Speed for sharing your house and your bed with me. (I will be stealing your bed.) Speed, for your comforting embraced and J for being the most understanding person in the world. Both of you, for showing me a great time, even though it wasn't the best of times for either of you. I love you both more than words can ever say.